hihi everyone! It's been a long time since I've written a blog post nor make a new update to my personal website. Apparently, during that big hiatus. I was playing a pretty underrated social sandbox MMO indie game called Tower Unite. Which is a successor to Gmod Tower. I actually played the game last year but not too much since I was probably fairly new to the game and not that familiar with a lot of stuff and didn't delve deep into it...
A year later, now in 2025. I started to play it more often than before, I made some friends now and there but not much and I somehow became friends with another player who plays Tower Unite a lot more than me. They were also the first person to have long and deep conversations with me everytime... Until I noticed he was a bit immature and controlling, so I stopped being friends with them. There wasn't much other than the slow pace of making friends and finding who I want to spend time with... Other than that. I had an IRL "best" friend whose been with me for 8 years and yet... never cared for me and treated me like crap... Apparently, with all the life lessons I learned from Tower Unite, I realized that my "best" friend was basically just an egotistical, toxic, narcissistic manipulator and manchild. Besides, he was always the same person I have met 8 years ago and never changed his attitude and ways... And with that, I did the one thing I should've done a long time ago... letting go of my former "best" friend. All these 8 years were nothing but wasted years of just me being mistreated and always put aside and also judged all the time... Ever since I cut ties with him, I had more friends than ever and also made new friends who click with me with such ease. I no longer have to hide or mask my true self. And I had more friends in Tower Unite and also on Steam in general...
The past no longer holds so much weight in my mind anymore. All those memories of judgement, mistreatment and always being gaslighted and manipulated... no more. Now with my online social life and everything about myself now stabilized. I guess I'm more confident in myself in my hobbies and other things in life... Because I have really good friends that I can hang out with. :3